Exciting Week....

Excited for the upcoming week, I get to see my family (have not since Easter!), go to a Cubs game at Wrigley Field (Jim's first time there!), and go to Steve's birthday party at the lake! oh, and Sunday off work. Nothing but fun.

Jim and i stained the fence this weekend and met some friends for Thai food, pretty low key. We reviewed some file for COP (waiting children) I am aware that in REALITY we have no chance of these being our referrals. However, it is so much fun to read about the children and see their sweet faces. My Mom made a comment that we would not be ready and I thought...we could get ready, that would not be a problem. We are fortunate to be in a good position entering this adoption. However, we have NOTHING for children...and will not buy anything until referral. I was in Target and saw myself drawn to the children's items, which, for those of you that know me is very out of the ordinary. and second...we have no clue what we will need based on age and gender.

I applied for a PRN job at another hospital this evening, just trying to open up options for more hours and potential part time opportunities. I cannot believe that I have had thoughts of staying home (well realistically working part time) If you talked to me even one year ago I would make comments about not obtaining an advanced degree to stay home. That was before I knew about daycare and even considered only spending one to two hours with my child who has just been removed from the ONLY family and culture they have know. It is lots to think about and often I think i worry about being judged, or mostly me judging myself. However, working part time will keep me engaged in my career. I do want to advance in my counseling career and part time would be temporary. Those of you that know Jim and I we like having two incomes (ie. shopping, vacation) I need to remember to make the decision for my family not my perceptions of society. Even if I stay home for a year or two I will still have my education.